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I’ve been gone for a long time…. but I am back now!
What’s New?
- I haven’t been on a scale in 4 months. I am POSITIVE I have hit a new HW.
- Did I ever mention my whole family is overweight? My sister had lap band in the Fall. She’s down about 30. My aunt will be undergoing bypass this coming Fall. My mom needs to, especially with the positive reactions concerning diabetes. I on the other hand, keep putting it off because somehow I feel like I am a failure if I don’t do it like…. well… all of you.
- I need to lose upward of 200lbs.
- I got a part time job (finally) and I hate it. Furthermore, my body hates it. I am popping pain killers daily.
- I am seriously depressed. I am seriously tired of it. I’m weighing the options of taking something, because if I stay depressed I will continue to fail at weight loss.
Now I know that looks really negative, but I am still going to give it everything I’ve got. I have a few goals I would like to hit by my PR trip in August.
- Drop a dress size. From 26/28 to 22/24. Or just to 24.
- Grow my nails back out.
- Paint my place.
- Acquire much needed furniture.
- Learn to drive.
- Find a better job.
I also need to start really cooking. I sub SmartOnes for nearly EVERYTHING (when I am attempting to lose), and while I cook well, I just never do it. I’m going to attempt to pre pack all my food at the head of every week, as to work on my portion control. I also need to modify my sweet intake. My sweet tooth is my absolute weakness. I need healthier options to subdue those ever present cravings.
I know I have a lot to work on, and I am going to need the support of everyone around me. Hopefully I can learn to accept help when it presents itself, and be successful on this continuous journey.
Wish me luck!
-M
I feel like I’ve been posting a lot of negativity.
I’m going through a tough time, and I am losing touch with the confidence in myself. It infuriates me because I know it’s happening, and yet I feel powerless to stop it. I am losing touch with my securities since I’ve come to fitblr this second time around. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m following more people… but I’ve seemed to encounter a gross amount of body shaming, and I feel like I’m losing my resolve.
I may not have ventured far in shaping and molding my body… ever, but I have come a LONG way in how I’ve felt and appreciated my body. I feel like I am losing touch with the person I loved being, and I cannot afford for that to happen. Especially not now.
With that being said, I am going to be taking a short mental health hiatus from fitblr. I do not expect you to understand or wait around, but at the very least, I hope you can respect my decision.
I am not closing my page or ending my journey. I am not unfollowing or blocking anyone. I am simply going to take a break. I won’t be posting or commenting for awhile.
Again I apologize.
I wish you all continued success and hope to have some followers left upon my return. Thank you for the inspirations.
-M
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(submitted by littlemissbunker)
Oh look, another racist prick saying that black women are repulsive until you “look deeper” at our darkie dark skin, and that we’re literally a race bred for sex! How new and progressive in thought!
NOT.
i wish they’d left this guy’s name up
he doesn’t fucking deserve anonymity for being this much of a tosspot
I found the guy. He’s in the comments of this blog post.
…look at this fucking cracker talk in stead of black people.
REALLY?
Wow. It’s the exact phenomenon that so many black women on here have discussed.
The desire to fuck and play with black women while refusing to put a ring on them and own them in public.
No non-black people better step today.
Just.
Better not step if you don’t want your face crushed.
I didn’t come into 2012 for this.
Reblogged for those I’ve encountered who tell me racism doesn’t exist/isn’t accepted.
Hi guys!
Hope you enjoyed Christmas!
I finally got a Wii! I got Zumba for it, so as soon as I can learn these damn steps, I am on my way to exercise. I got one down. Pray for me lol.
On the food front, I lost the battle with holiday eats. My life and journey aren’t over though, so bare with me.
On the mental note…
I’m ebbing on depression. I noticed the signs. I’ve let the reigns loose on alot, but now I have no nails (stress… and I JUST grew them out again), my facial regimen has fallen by the wayside (I have acne now smh), my place is not tip top (though my friends don’t think its dirty)…
I noticed all of this when I got back from PA. I was so happy those few days, and when I got here it was almost undone.
I’ve got to find a job. It’s literally killing me. All the things I know that will lift my spirits like doing something as simple as buying face wash and taking care of my skin are haulted because of my situation, and that’s whats driving me mad. I feel powerless.
It is my main priority for 2012. I can’t go another year this way.
I’m doing my best to get back on track with my eating. It really is an everyday struggle for me, especially when I feel the way I feel.
Please pray for me.
I hope everyone is doing well!
-M
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- J Fit Weighted Hula Hoop
- Wii Fit
- Christian Louboutin Prive
- Resistance Bands
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I wonder if part of maintaining my size 18 was due to the gross amount of partying and dancing in heels I did during that time…
Because I went out last weekend… and (due to the practicing I do everyday walking in these ridiculous heels I got) I was able to keep on and dance in my regular 3 inch heels all night.
But when I woke up the next day… PAIN! So much pain.
When you’re west indian, dancing is like thee best cardio. :) but in these…
MAN OH MAN
Packing today to go surprise my sister for Christmas!
I haven’t seen her for Christmas in 4 years. Usually she comes home for Thanksgiving (she lives in PA), but she wasn’t able to this year or last year.
I’m so elated. People may not think of us as close (ourselves included) but the holidays has always been about family for us, and they just haven’t been the same without her.
Her friends are going down for New Years, and I’m thinking of joining that bandwagon too.
What that means for fitblr, is that I may be absent for a few. So If you don’t see me, I’m still here cheering for you guys, and I hope you’re all still routing for me.
Have a wonderful Christmahanukwanza!!